I Was A “Me – Pessimist”

Confession!!!   I lived most of my life as a “me–pessimist.”   Sadly, I spent too many years believing

• my “glass was half empty and not half full;” and
• it was impossible for me to make  “lemonade out of lemons.”

Frankly, I was the half empty glass” as well as the ‘lemons.”  The years of verbal, emotional and physical abuse perpetrated by a dysfunctional and alcoholic father created a weak woman.   A wounded soul, low self-esteem, and no confidence; I, the “me-pessimist” focused on the negatives and not the positives.

But, mind you, I was overly optimistic when it came to others.  If friends or family strayed into the “pessimist mode;” I quickly stepped in hoping to turn their negative thoughts into positive ones.  Sadly, I did not feel empowered to do the same for myself.

Over the years, seeking the approval and acceptance of others, I ignored many of my hopes, dreams and desires.  The fear of being judged hindered my ability to think like an “optimist.”   You see I felt safe and comfortable living life as a “me-pessimist.”

A breast cancer diagnosis in 2008 and a life threatening respiratory illness in 2010 was a life-changer.    At last I understood, as one of God’s Creations, I was blessed with the ability to  “make choices.”

Now, I choose to live with my “glass half full and not  half empty” and to “make lemonade out of lemons.”  In other words, I choose to —

• make “every day” a “great day “ and my “best day”
• focus on the positives and reject the negatives

Author: SeasonedSistah2

During this final season life, I am going on a journey to define "ME." Opening up and going outside of my comfort zone to redefine ME.. Exploring and pursuing new interests that will lead to personal happiness, serenity, and tranquility. In undertaking this mission, overcoming the FEAR is my greatest challenge. Fear has played a large role in my life, but I overcame the FEAR of breast cancer, chronic pain associated with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia, Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, and Sleep Apnea. My new mantra: FEAR has two meanings: "(1) Forget Everything And Run, or (2) Face Everything and Rise. The Choice is Mine." Blogging here I come ready or not!!! View all posts by SeasonedSistah2