I Was A “Me – Pessimist”

Confession!!!   I lived most of my life as a “mepessimist.”   Sadly, I spent too many years believing

  • my “glass was half empty and not half full;” and
  • it was impossible for me to make  “lemonade out of lemons.”

Frankly, I was the half empty glass” as well as the ‘lemons.”  The years of verbal, emotional and physical abuse perpetrated by a dysfunctional and alcoholic father created a weak woman.   A wounded soul, low self-esteem, and no confidence; I, the “me-pessimist” focused on the negatives and not the positives.

Image 2

But, mind you, I was overly optimistic when it came to others.  If friends or family strayed into the “pessimist mode;” I quickly stepped in hoping to turn their negative thoughts into positive ones.  Sadly, I did not feel empowered to do the same for myself.

Image 5

Over the years, seeking the approval and acceptance of others, I ignored many of my hopes, dreams and desires.  The fear of being judged hindered my ability to think like an “optimist.”   You see I felt safe and comfortable living life as a “me-pessimist.”

Image 6

A breast cancer diagnosis in 2008 and a life threatening respiratory illness in 2010 was a life-changer.    At last I understood, as one of God’s Creations, I was blessed with the ability to  “make choices.”

Image 1

Now, I choose to live with my “glass half full and not  half empty” and to “make lemonade out of lemons.”  In other words, I choose to —

  • make “every day” a “great day “ and my “best day”
  • focus on the positives and reject the negatives

Image 4

Author: SeasonedSistah2

During this final season life, I am going on a journey to define "ME." Opening up and going outside of my comfort zone to redefine ME.. Exploring and pursuing new interests that will lead to personal happiness, serenity, and tranquility. In undertaking this mission, overcoming the FEAR is my greatest challenge. Fear has played a large role in my life, but I overcame the FEAR of breast cancer, chronic pain associated with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia, Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, and Sleep Apnea. My new mantra: FEAR has two meanings: "(1) Forget Everything And Run, or (2) Face Everything and Rise. The Choice is Mine." Blogging here I come ready or not!!!

7 thoughts on “I Was A “Me – Pessimist””

    1. Thank u for your support. Blogging is filling some of the empty spaces in this season of my life. Enjoy retirement, but need to keep active to avoid going into a vegetative state.

      Like

  1. mom, i love u so much. You have been my greatest inspiration and biggest supporter. Please keep sharing and inspiring.
    Tony

    Like

    1. Thank you son. So happy you take the time to read what I have to say. You always listen and now you are burdened with reading more of what I have to say. But, I so appreciate your supporting me as I venture into the world of blogging.

      Like

    1. Sharon I so appreciate your taking the time to read my blog. I am not a writer, but feel compelled to put some of my thoughts and feelings on paper in this season of my life. Enjoyed working with you and miss all of my PMTC friends. So happy to stay connected with you through social media.

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Health and Wellness Associates

Shared Decision Concept in Your Healthcare

Teri Carter's Library

Where we love dogs, read books, and talk Kentucky politics.

Birthing Rainbows

Sometimes There Are Rainbows After Rain

The Oily Guru

Aromatherapy and life

Natalie Breuer

Natalie. Writer. Photographer. Etc.

Watching the Daisies

Life Lessons on the Importance of Slow

Ramblings of a Writer

Living the Path of Life

scottishmomus

What I See

hometogo232

A place of Love and Security

Social Justice For All

Working towards global equity and equality

Robby Robin's Journey

Reflections of an inquiring retiree ...

WGN-TV

Chicago's Very Own source for breaking news, weather, sports and entertainment.

WARE I'M COMING FROM

BARE ALL: THE TRUTH IS BETTER NAKED.

Atypical 60

A Typical Blog. A Typical Woman. A Typical Take On Life. With An Atypical Twist!

writing for self-discovery

creating a life that fits like skin

Haddon Musings

There are 11,507 stories in Haddonfield; this is one of them.

Share Your Light

You are a miracle - Let it happen

M J Mallon YA Author and Poet

Kyrosmagica Publishing - The Magical Home of Books, Writing, Photography and Inspiration

Cathy Lynn Brooks

Let me tell you Justine's story

willowdot21

An insight to a heart mind and soul.

mindjobusinessdotcom.wordpress.com/

Self Love Enthusiast. Dating Inquisitive. Lover of All Things Positive.

Treat Yourself to a Journaling Adventure

journal prompts, memoir, art, poetry for the verbose and the introverted

Miscellaneous & Recommendations

This WordPress.com site is great for bloggers and readers.

When Timber Makes One Still

"Everyone needs beauty as well as bread, places to play in and pray in, where nature may heal and give strength to the soul" -John Muir

Reymon de Real Photography

My favorite hobby is capturing the beauty around me.

vanbytheriver

Living Life. Paying Attention.

A Black Rose

A Safe Haven for Silent Voices

Sights & Insights

By Lucile de Godoy

Tourmaline .

Small Scale Fabricated Photography, Toy Photography History, Art Creation Musings

Teaching No Talking

"Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better" ~Albert Einstein

Life As An Art Form

Quips & Commentaries in Prose and Poetry

Through Open Lens

Home of Lukas Kondraciuk Photography

LEANNE COLE

Trying to live a creative life

Nik's Place

A place for words to chill...

SueBee and Kat

From California to Kansas... and sometimes beyond

Critical Dispatches

Reports from my somewhat unusual life

Nikki Skies

I am a lover of perseverance. I am folklore. I am consistency and contradiction.

Good Woman

Threads of My Life

Expressing my vision

A journey into creativity

%d bloggers like this: