A GRATEFUL FIVE-YEAR BREAST CANCER SURVIVOR – PART 2

 INTRODUCTION

I designated October as the month to read everything MY 70-year-old brain could absorb on Breast CancerAlso, the goal was to write a four-part series about MY five-year journey as a Survivor.   

Relying on Google searches, I visited Breast Cancer:

  • Organizations
  • Personal Blogs
  • Support Groups Online
  • Support Groups for Family
  • Forums and Discussion Groups

But, before I could finish Part 2 of the series, a bout of bronchitis entered MY space and gained control.  For almost three weeks, I was totally out of commission.   But thanks to an excellent primary care physician, nebulizer inhalations, antibiotics, and cough medicine; I am bronchitis-free, feeling great, and ready to complete what I started.

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PART 2 – SURVIVING AND OVERCOMING BREAST CANCER

In the beginning of my Breast Cancer journey, I was frustrated, depressed, anxious, fearful and just plain angry.

Without warning, this “unwelcome” and “unfamiliar” condition, Breast Cancer, invaded MY body and changed MY life.  There were so many unanswered questions about life expectancy, diagnosis, radiation, and chemotherapy.

Did I really want answers?  No, denial and rejection of any topic related to Breast Cancer served as MY safety net I chose to make Assumptions rather than face Reality.

Assumptions:

  • MY Five Year Survival Rate for Stage 1 Breast Cancer was 97%.
  • Stage 1 Breast Cancer was serious but not life threatening. 
  • After five years, Breast Cancer was no longer a risk.

Sadly, for more than five years, I relied on these Assumptions.

But I was left with no choice but to face Reality as I prepared to write this four-part series on Breast Cancer.  After reading a number of blogs written by Breast Cancer survivors and caregivers as well as visiting different Breast Cancer organization websites, I confronted —

Reality

  • American Cancer SocietyThe five year survival rate refers to the percentage of patients who live after their cancer is found.  Of course, many people live much longer than five years.”
  • Oncology Practice, Living with Metastatic Breast Cancer:  A Global Patient Survey – “Worldwide, one-third of patients who present with early-stage breast cancer will go on to develop metastatic disease.”

Now, I must face the Reality that MY

  • 98% five-year survival rate has ended; and
  • despite an early diagnosis of Stage 1 Breast Cancer, I may be among the one-third who develops metastatic Stage 4 Breast Cancer.

As I continue down the path of this Breast Cancer journey, I will strive to improve the quality of MY life, on a daily basis, through:

  • Exercise
  • Meditation
  • Pacing
  • Distractions
  • Sleep Health
  • Diet and Nutrition
  • Massage Therapy
  • Aromatherapy
  • Spiritual Growth

I plan to put forth an extra effort to remain optimistic and stay positive in preparing to write Part 3 of this series on metastatic Stage 4 Breast Cancer.    It’s a topic that I fear but I no longer will rely on Assumptions to avoid Reality.

Expressing Gratitude for the positive changes in my life after Breast Cancer.  Everything happens in accordance with God’s Plan.  

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Also, Appreciation and Thanks to Amanda, Living in Another Language, for creating the new blog design.

A Grateful Five-Year Breast Cancer Survivor

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First in a Series of Four Posts

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month.  And, I am a Grateful Five-Year Breast Cancer Survivor choosing to share my journey by:  (1) stepping outside of my comfort zone; (2) moving beyond the “mere act” of wearing pink; and (3) writing this blog series.

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First and foremost, I express gratitude to God for the Gift of Life since my Breast Cancer diagnosis in February 2008.

SEEKING ANSWERS

In the early stages of my journey, frustration, anger, fear, and depression prevented me from expressing gratitude and appreciation to God or anyone else.  Instead, I was seeking answers —

  • HOW?             I had a clean mammogram seven months ago.
  • WHY?             There is no history of breast cancer in my family.
  • WHAT?          Is my survival rate?

TREATMENT

While I never received a clear medical answer to the HOW and WHY; my five-year survival rate is 97% based on the success of the following treatments:

  • Lumpectomy (Left Breast) – removal of the cancer and some of the normal breast tissue around it.  (Medline Plus)
  • Chemotherapy – IV Injection, eights hours one day per week, for 12 weeks
  • Radiation – Five days per week for eight weeks.

Prior to the Lumpectomy procedure, they warned me about the possible pronounced and disfiguring breast asymmetry.  For me, this was not an issue.  At the time of diagnosis, I was 66-years-old, married to Hubby for more than 48 years, and knew HE would continue to love ME as well as MY lumpy and disfigured left breast.   The size difference between my breasts never concerned me.   If I had been younger, it might have been different

Beyond the five daily treatments, irritating skin burns, and feeling worn out; there were no significant problems with Radiation therapy.

I faced several challenges during the Chemotherapy phase.

  • Challenge #1 – After working for almost two years coordinating a Family Reunion scheduled to take place in our city, I could not attend.  Two days earlier, based on lab findings, the Oncologist placed me on home quarantine; and I was told to continuously wear a surgical mask.  Not because I was dangerous to “others,” but “others” were dangerous to ME.   Feeling miserable and alone with over 200 family members arriving for a full weekend of fun and activities, Hubby and the Middle-Aged Kids allowed those who were closest to visit me at home for a short time.  No hugging, no touching, no bodily contact and they were only allowed to stand outside of my bedroom door.   Not sure if my Oncologist would have approved.  But, in this case the benefits outweighed the risk – at least I thought so.
  • Challenge #2 – I did not complete the full 12 weeks of therapy as ordered.    In Week #7 the Oncologist cancelled my chemo; after, I reported unusual sensations in my feet and toes.  The Oncologist said this was a side effect of one of the chemo drugs.   I was diagnosed with Peripheral Neuropathy (Nerve Pain).  I knew there were side effects.  But, the benefits of the chemo drugs outweighed the risks.  So, I now must live with another chronic condition for which there is no known cure. 
  • Challenge #3I was depressed.  It was difficult to watch my hair fall out braid-by-braid, a little more everyday, and, finally total baldness.  Eventually, I was able to overcome the depression by repeating over and over  the proverb, “This too will pass.

Ever Grateful to God

for the

Gift of Life

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Weekly Wishes #6

 

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Unfulfilled Wishes from Week #3, #4 and #5

Whoopee!!!!  Hooray!!!! Finally, I fulfilled two of the three remaining Wishes from Weeks #3, #4 and #5:

 On Saturday, I Exercised in the Pool for 45 minutes for the first time; since, I quit the Aqua Zumba class at the YMCA in August to go on vacation.   Wish Aqua Zumba was offered year-round; I will miss going to my “pool party” every Saturday morning.  I loved everything about this class.  Especially, the “salsa/hip hop music;” “low impact aquatic workout;” and, I had the “greatest time” with an “energetic and enthusiastic” group of women.  Since the pool will soon close at the YMCA, I will have to exercise “solo” in our pool at home.  Unless, I can get Hubby to join me.

Grateful for Exercising in the Pool and until the cold days arrive in Florida; I plan to merge water aerobics into my overall exercise program.

I Prepared a Healthy Meal from a Recipe, Fried Corn Zucchini Medley

Thanks to Grandma Loy’s Kitchen for sharing this quick and easy recipe on her blog.  I wanted a vegetarian dish as a side to grilled, skinless chicken breast; so, I omitted the bacon topping as she suggested.

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I urge you to visit Grandma Loy’s Kitchen for her recipe as well as a beautiful photo presentation of the dish posted on August 30, 2013.   I know you will not be disappointed.  Grandma Loy has collected recipes for over 50 years; and, I am so happy to have access to her Holiday Cookie Mix recipes when the Grands come for Christmas.

Sadly, I failed to fulfill my Wish to Learn About My New Digital Camera.  But, I did overcome my anxiety about digital camera technology.  At the beginning of last week, I removed the camera from its packaging, read the directions, and charged the battery.  Then realized, I should have purchased a “memory card.”   So, I placed an on-line order, which arrived on Friday.  I will revisit this project next week.

Fulfilled Wishes from Week #5

I did fulfill my two new Wishes for Week #5 to make blog connections with caregivers and survivors of Breast Cancer and Chronic Pain.  I toured Blogosphere and subscribed and/or joined:

  • 12 Chronic Pain Blogs
  • 34 Breast Cancer Blogs

My stay at each blog site was very brief; given the thirty-four that I located and visited over a seven-day period.  But in the coming months, I plan longer visits to each blog.

As a survivor of both Breast Cancer and Chronic Pain, I am excited about connecting with other survivors with the Wish of sharing and learning about the personal experiences, opinions, attitudes, and/or sentiments of survivors, families, and/or caregivers.

My Wishes for Week #6

  • Prepare a Healthy Dessert
  • Review YouTube Videos on Canon Digital Cameras
  • Calendar of Activities:  Breast Cancer Awareness Month
  • Post Breast Cancer:  A Grateful Survivor – Part 1
  • Visit and Comment on Eight Breast Cancer Blogs
  • In Support of Sisters Network-Milwaukee Chapter:  Display Pink Wreath on Front Door

 

 

Weekly Wishes #5

 

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Week #4

I had every intention of fulfilling My Wishes to: 

  • Exercise in the Pool
  • Learn About my New Digital Camera
  • Prepare a Healthy Meal from a Recipe

But, I did’nt! 

Fulfilled A Different Wish

I opened up, reached out and embraced a new opportunity.

I participated in the Week-Long Commentathon Event hosted by Blogelina.

The prospect of introducing new readers to SeasonedSistahs2 was both exciting and challenging.

I submitted my Weekly Wishes #3 post for comments.

The number of bloggers who commented was surprising.  Within a week, SeasonedSistahs2 connected with over 50+ new blog sites.

But, after commenting on several posts, I wanted to know more about the bloggers who commented.   Not only did I read the assigned Commenthaton posts; I read About Pages and other Posts that tweaked my interests on:

Young Children

Discussions on Race

Homemaking Tips

  • More Than MundaneMy 10 Essentials for A Homemade Home,” September 9, 2013

Beauty and Health

Elders

  • Life’s A Lesson “10 Places for Help So That Elderly Can Live In Their Home and Still be Safe,” September 8, 2013

A Forgotten “Wish”

Until Blogelina’s Commenthaton, I had forgotten the Wish made in my very first post, “My Final Season:  How I Choose to Live It” on January 12, 2012 where I stated:

So many things I want to do.

Yet, sometimes I feel there is so little time.

As a beginning I want to create

a blog as a connection to the diverse

range of people in blogosphere.

Consumed with writing a blog to express my views these past months; I totally neglected to follow through on My Initial Blog Wish … “to create a blog as a connection.”   

Weekly Wishes #5

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Yes I am confident, this will be the week  for me:

  • Exercise in the Pool
  • Learn About my New Digital Camera
  • Prepare a Healthy Meal from a Recipe

Also, I Wish to make blog connections with survivors of:

A survivor of both these conditions, I recognize how important it is for ME to stay informed, involved, and connected with these communities – on-line and off-line.

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My Recent Chronic Pain Flareup

For the past 18 days, I have been pain-free.  Well, that’s not true.  Having lived with chronic pain for more than twenty years, I experience some level of pain everyday.   But, I have been able to manage and control my pain condition with non-narcotic prescription medications and utilizing my cadre of self-management tools:

  • Sleep – 8 hours a Night
  • Pacing Activities
  • Rest/Relaxation
  • Distractions (Music, Blogging, Facebook, E-Mails, Reading, Journaling, etc.)
  • Exercise
  • Meditation
  • Yoga
  • Aqua Zumba
  • Music

However, around Thanksgiving last year, I had a severe pain flare-up in my right knee.  The pain was agonizing, constant, and never-ending.

Though, I continued to take the prescribed meds and use my self-management tools; I had no pain relief.

Despite the continuous pain, I refused to see a doctor until July 2013.  Ridiculous, Really, Are You Serious, Why? — just a few of the comments I heard from friends and family.  There is no plausible answer other than FEAR of a knee replacement, hospital, surgery and anesthesia.   In a two year-period, I survived two life-threatening conditions — Breast Cancer in 2008 and Epiglottitis in 2010.  

Frankly, at 70-years-old, I was not ready for another round of treatments, hospitalization, or a long-term recovery period.  All of which would be required with a knee replacement.

In July, I visited the Adult Kids and Grands in Wisconsin; and, I also kept the bi-annual follow-up visit with my long-term rheumatologist.  Of course, ME having been described as “stoic” by more than one health care provider; underreported my pain levels.  But Dr. O noticed me “limping” and “grimacing” as I made my way on and off the exam table.

Caught in the ActBusted.  He immediately ordered an x-ray and, after review, recommended a referral to an orthopedic surgeon to discuss a knee replacement.

My response, “Well, I’m heading back to Florida in a day or two, I will look into seeing one there.  Thinking, knee replacement it’s not going to happen.

Prior to the follow-up visit with my rheumatologist, a YMCA friend had noticed me “limping” and “grimacing” around the exercise room for months.  Several times he suggested that I schedule an appointment with the orthopedic surgeon who had done his knee replacement.

Finally, after more than six months of constant and unrelenting pain, I scheduled the appointment with my friend’s orthopedic surgeon, Dr. M.

After reviewing the x-rays, Dr. M said my chronic autoimmune disease (Mr. Arthur-Rheumatoid Arthritis) had severely attacked my knee joints and a future knee replacement surgery was inevitable.

Good News

I experienced immediate pain relief following a cortisone injection by Dr. M.

Even Better News

Dr. M prescribed four weeks of physical therapy

to build up my muscles in preparation for the future knee replacement.

Bestest News

I overcame the FEAR of a knee replacement.

My “Aha” Moment

The quality of my life is more important

than the fear of a knee replacement.

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Weekly Wishes #3

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Last week, my “Wishes” for “Week #2” were to:

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Smile and Laugh More – During most of my pre-teen and teenage years, I sported a cavity right between my two front teeth.  For fear of embarrassment, I would seldom “Smile” or “Laugh.”  Finally, when I was about 16-years-old MAMA managed to save enough money to pay for capping both teeth in porcelain.  Gold caps were cheaper, then, but this was totally an unacceptable option for “her daughter.”

Old habits are hard to break.  But, this past week, I made an effort to “Smile” or “Laugh” when:

–                Meeting people face-to-face

–                Reading e-mails, Facebook notifications, and blog posts

–                Conversing on the telephone with family, friends, telemarketers

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Each Day Give Something Good to Others – I made it a point to say a warm and heart-felt “Thank You” to everyone who provided ME with a service – including, but not limited to the:

Cashiers at the grocery store who always asks, “If I found everything I was looking for.”  Understandable, since Hubby and I shop for groceries almost every day of the week.

Physical Therapist even though, on this first visit, he took me through a grueling hour of stretching and balancing exercises.

Nail Tech for a relaxing pedicure and lovely manicure as well as showing patience when I fell asleep in the manicure and pedicure chairs.  I always go to sleep; and, with a very light touch she lets me know when  I need to do something.

Customer Service Representative at PayPal who was so patient in assisting me with accessing my account to pay the invoice for the redesigning of my blog by Amanda at www.livinginanotherlanguage.com

To one of my BFF (Best Friends Forever), a grandmother, struggling with whether it is feasible to pursue her long-time Wish of going back to college, I Give to BFF words of encouragement by sharing the following quotes:

  • The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you. (Tom Bradley)
  • If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.  (Albert Einstein)
  • Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.  Live the life you have imagined.  (Henry David Thoreau)

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Express Gratitude Daily – For a short period, I stopped writing down what I was grateful for at the end of the day.  This past week, I am back on track and Expressed my Gratitude by writing before I retired for the night in my Gratitude Journal.

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Stay in Touch with Extended Family and Friends – Over the years; I have been remiss in staying connected with people who I love and need in my life.  I feel proud of my “outreach” efforts this past week.   I

  • telephoned and had a long conversation with a former neighbor and friend in Wisconsin.
  • reached out, by sending warm messages via greeting cards, to four of my closest friends in Wisconsin.

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Rest and Relax – Did I ever.  Every morning, I rose at 5:00 a.m., with the exception of two mornings at 7:00 a.m., to sit for an hour on our rear screened-in-lanai.   The serenity and tranquility enhanced by listening to the audio book by Sarah Ban Breathnach, “Simple Abundance:  Living by Your Own Lights,” with soft sounds of background piano music played by Kelly Yost.

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The music put me in such a relaxing state; I didn’t hesitate to place an order for the CD.  Sadly, on backorder, and, I can’t wait to receive it.

Weekly Wishes #3 improved the overall quality of my life and I will strive to continue down the path that these Wishes led me to.

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As I begin Week #4 my Wishes are to:

  • Perform small acts of kindness.
  • Exercise in the pool swimming pool.
  • Learn as much as I can about my newly purchased digital camera.
  • Prepare healthy meal from a recipe.
  • Read each day a passage fromSimple Abundance:  A Daybook of Comfort and Joy,” by Sarah Ban Breathnach.

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Today is Better than Yesterday and Tomorrow the Possibilities are Unlimited!!!

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Luv My Transitioning Neighborhood

Transitional Neighborhood is a neighborhood that is “changing” it can be from good to bad or bad to good, but usually it is from bad to good.” (Wikipedia)

When our youngest daughter left for college in 1985, Hubby and I became “Empty Nesters.”  We enjoyed the down sized apartment style of living until 1999.  Then WE got the “home ownership bug” again

WE found the perfect four-bedroom tri-level home in a nearby suburb of Milwaukee, Wisconsin.   Originally built as a model for the Parade of Homes in 1962, this house ticked every box on “our wishes and needs checklist.”  It, also, met our “must haves”?

  • Quiet Neighborhood – Eight homes on a dead-end street separated by spacious lot sizes on both sides.
  • Scenic Views – Rear of home backs up to wooded conservation area.
  • Lower Traffic – One street entrance and exit.  Limits unknown people and vehicles passing through.
  • Like-Minded Neighbors –  Empty Nesters

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Our “Cul-de-Sac” House

Hubby and I were the newbies.”  All of our neighbors were now “Empty Nesters” who had lived in the neighborhood since before the 1970.s   We heard stories about how alive and active the “cul-de-sac” had been back in the day when their children were growing up.  But, when we arrived in 1999, the “cul-de-sac” was an “Empty Nesters” haven.

Somewhere around 2009, the house across the street from ours sold to a young couple with a 2-year-old little girl.  Even with this younger household, the “cul-de-sac” continued to serve as a sanctuary for “Empty Nesters. ”

Then, in January 2012, the neighborhood began to shift toward becoming a “Transitioning Neighborhood.”  Our Son, a single father with a 4-year-old daughter, rented our home; which had been empty since Hubby and I retired to Florida in 2010.   Now, there were two little girls living in the “cul-de-sac” attracting children from the adjoining cross street.

This summer Hubby and I visited our Son.  I spent most of my time sitting in a wicker chair on the front porch.  Watching the neighborhood children – playing, riding bicycles, tricycles, scooters, and other four-wheel battery-operated vehicles took me back to my childhood.   I was not only an onlooker, but the:

ü  Mediator of disputes,

ü  Judge for competitive activities; and

ü  Nurse with the band-aid who kissed the “owies.”

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Two Car Garage:  Granddaughter’s “Cul-de-Sac” Transportation

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Son and Granddaughter  Playing Around in the “Cul-de-Sac”

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“Cul-de-Sac” Neighbors

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“Cul-de-Sac” Race

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Granddaughter’s Favorite “Cul-de-Sac” Transportation

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Granddaughter’s Other Mode of “Cul-de-Sac” Transportation

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Granddaughter’s Front Porch Flower Garden

I enjoyed the changes in the “cul-de-sac.  But, I no longer live there.  I return for several weeks each year to visit my children and the grands.  However, I was curious about how the remaining “Empty Nesters” felt about the influx of children in the “cup-de-sac”.  Seeking an answer from at least one of the neighbors, I approached my next-door neighbor an 88-year-old, widowed about six years ago, who lives alone. When I asked about the “changes” in the “cul-de-sac”; she said, “I love to sit at the window and watch the children play.  It brightens my day.”

Like me, she sees the “Transitioning” as “good” and not “bad.”  Our “cul-de-sac” is welcoming in a new generation

Unlike, the following quote by Jane Jacobs, the Death and Life of Great American Cities:

“Neighborhoods built up all at once change little physically over the years as a rule…[Residents] regret that the neighborhood has changed. Yet the fact is, physically it has changed remarkably little. People’s feelings about it, rather, have changed. The neighborhood shows a strange inability to update itself, enliven itself, repair itself, or to be sought after, out of choice, by a new generation. It is dead. Actually it was dead from birth, but nobody noticed this much until the corpse began to smell.”

It’s A Pool Party: Aqua Zumba

Four weeks ago, I went to a fun pool party; and, I have “partied” every Saturday morning since.  Our community’s YMCA added an Aqua Zumba class to the Spring/Summer 2013 Group Exercise Schedule.   Taking an Aqua Zumba class was on my long Bucket List of “things to do before I die.” 

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About five years ago, my Baby Girl and some of the women who worked in our family-owned business started to take Land Zumba classes one evening a week.  They encouraged me to come along.   I wanted to join them, but I knew Mr. Arthur’s joints (Rheumatoid Arthritis) and Ms. PN’s feet (Peripheral Neuropathy) could not withstand the floor pounding steps of the cha-cha, merenque, salsa, reggaeton and mambo dance movements.

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Last year, I did venture into a Land Zumba Class at the YMCA.  Though, it was a beginning class, I was intimidated by the younger, fitter, and hipper women in the class.  Here I was, a fast approaching 70-year-old whose grace and rhythm, as a dancer, disappeared more than 40 years ago. This class was a painful experience for two reasons.  One, the physical pain to my deconditioned lower extremities pounding down on the hard floor; and, two the emotional pain of feeling inadequate and being judged by others in the class.   I finished the 60-minute class, but did not go back.  

For weeks, leading up to the first Aqua Zumba Class, I questioned whether —

  • I was prepared to appear in a swimming suit at a busy community pool on a Saturday morning?
  • I was able, given my mobility limitations, to even enter or exit the pool?

I arrived early for the first day of class.   Hoping no one would notice, I entered the pool area in the largest beach towel I could find.  It surrounded my body from chest to knees.  There were a lot of people sitting around the pool deck.  Most of them were relaxing, conversing or observing the preschoolers in their early morning swim class.  Quite frankly, a 70-year-old woman in a large beach towel did not seem to tweak anyone’s interest.

Then, I began to worry about how to make a smooth entrance into the pool.  Using the pool ladder I felt was my best option rather than lowering into the pool from the deck as the other women did.  I gradually and carefully focused on each step as I descended into the pool.  Grateful, I made it without a problem.   Since, I never learned to swim, I chose a spot toward the pool’s shallow end.  Thereafter, everything went smoothly.

The class started with a warm up dance to Latin music.  Wendy, the instructor, demonstrated the different dance moves from the deck.   The tempo changed and we were stretching, twisting, and splashing to the music – shouting along with Wendy.  Every time a new song started, Wendy instructed us on a new and different dance move.   Squatting, jumping and moving my hips in a circle pattern while moving around; then adding hand movements to spray, push, and pull the water was the ultimate full-body workout.

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Aided by the buoyancy of the water, the beat of the music, and the energy of the instructor; I was able to hold my own in a class of younger women

Aqua Zumba rebirthed my rhythm and grace, met my special needs, and opened the door to a challenging water based workout to improve my:

  • Aerobic/Cardiovascular Endurance
  • Muscle Resistance
  • Flexibility
  • Balance
  • Joint Mobility

Aqua Zumba provides a safe haven to lose inhibitions and focus on the exercise.   It’s definitely a freeing and empowering feeling exercising in the water.

The party atmosphere of Aqua Zumba combined with a safe and effective fitness workout is a win-win for me. 

Be Still Day

“Learning how to Be Still, to really Be Still and let life happen — that stillness becomes a radiance.”  (Morgan Freeman)

Last Sunday, overwhelmed and anxious, I decided it was time for a Be Still Day!   On this day only calmness, peacefulness, and stillness could enter my “Personal Space.”  

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Is it difficult to Be Still?  Or is it, just me?  As a young child, Mama often had to remind me to stop fidgeting.   She would quietly, but firmly say, “Yvonne, Be Still.”   An impatient child, I fidgeted most when I was . . .

  • getting my hair combed;
  • doing homework;
  • sitting in church,
  • riding in a car, or
  • eating dinner.

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Had I learned to Be Still as a child, perhaps my adult life would have been less stressful.   Though, I stopped fidgeting after a while, to Be Still is yet a work in progress.

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More recently, my inability to Be Still correlates with an addiction to my I-Pad and MacBook Pro.  For this reason, venturing into cyberspace — banned on Be Still Day.  No surfing the Internet, reading e-mails, or entering blogosphere for me on Be Still Day.  

The Be Still Day was a success.  I needed this day of stillness, aloneness, meditation, inner focus, and spiritual enlightenment to cure a serious case of undernourishment.

For weeks leading up to the self-imposed Be Still Day, I didn’t nourish my mind, body and spirit.  Far too many “first time tasks” on a long “to do list.”   All related to:

  • A 53rd Anniversary Gift this month from Hubby and The Eldest Daughter; as well as
  • Preparing for The Daughters and 13-Year-Old Grandson’s Annual Week-Long Spring Visit

The anniversary gift was a “generous, though budgeted amount,” for a mini makeover of my kitchen and bathrooms.    Hubby and The Eldest Daughter offered to help.   My immediate response was, “I Got This.”   After all, I have been an avid follower of . . .

  • Home and Garden TV
  • Do It Yourself Network
  • Martha Stewart Living
  • Better Homes and Gardens
  • Real Simple
  • House and Home

Certainly, twenty years of devouring decorating magazines and countless hours of watching home makeover programs on television prepared me to handle a “mini makeover.” 

Feeling confident, I went to my trusted friend, The Internet, for ideas on tile, granite, sinks, faucets, and lighting.    Looking for contractors, plumbers, fabricators, installers, electricians, and painters; I  checked the telephone book, Angie’s List, Craig’s List as well as asking my neighbors.  Overwhelmed with all the options.  Unable to make a decision, I spent days analyzing, procrastinating and stressing outaccomplishing nothing.  

My inner voice shouted, “You need help.”   Putting pride aside, I called on the Hubby and The Eldest Daughter for help.   Working together, as a team, we completed all the tasks on the “to do list” in less than a week.   The last stage of the project, installing the backsplash tiles, is scheduled for completion by day’s end.

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I am a Survivor.  Living with a medical history of:

  • Breast Cancer,
  • Rheumatoid Arthritis,
  • Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease;
  • Sleep Apnea;
  • Fibromyalgia, and
  • Peripheral Neuropathy

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The challenges I face, as a survivor, on any given day can be . . .

  • Fatigue
  • Sleeplessness
  • Weakened Immune System
  • Stressfulness
  • Chronic Pain
  • Cancer Re-Occurrence

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Oftentimes, I forget my survivor status and take on too much.  When this happens, the mind, body and spirit crash.   I can always count on Hubby and the Three Adult Kids to lift me up.   Ultimately, however, I am the survivor and it is my responsibility to make the right choices.

Since Be Still Day, upon arising every morning, I repeat my personal affirmation.

I am a survivor of Breast Cancer and Chronic Pain.   I claim, accept and embrace this life.  Today, I am grateful for the opportunity to follow my path toward a healthy mind, body, and spirit.  My Survivorship is Dependent Upon My Emotional, Mental and Physical Health. (SeasonedSistah 2)

The Daughters: Spring Vacation Visit

 

“A daughter may outgrow your lap,but she will never outgrow your heart.”

Just finished eight loads of laundry all towels and bed linen, but it was worth the extra effort.  The remaining four of my six houseguests, this past week, departed on an early morning flight returning to the cold of Wisconsin.

Since moving to Florida three years ago, the hubby and I look forward to spring school breaks and Christmas holidays.  Weeks and sometimes months in advance, preparation begins for our children and grandchildren’s bi-annual visits to our home.

During this visit, I am so grateful and thankful for the five days of relaxing face-to-face time spent with The Daughters.   Though we communicate, by telephone, at least two to three times a day; I treasure those times when we are in each other’s presence.

Hours and Hours of Quality Time with The Daughters Lounging on The Lanai

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Tasty Lunch with The Daughters at the Mall

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Diva Window Shopping Day with The Daughters at The Mall

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Picked Up a Strawberry Cheesecake to Share with Hubby and the Grands

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Expressing gratitude and appreciation to The Daughters who choose to spend their spring vacation with their Mom and Dad.

The Daughters and grandchildren arrived home safely.  Everything is quiet. The hubby and I have spent the day getting the house back in order, catching up on things that went undone including this week’s blog.

Reflections on The Daughters’Visit

As I grow older, the roles are reversing.  The Daughters are overprotective, watchful and uneasy when they perceive the slightest change in my physical, emotional or mental behavior.    Much like I was when they were children.  It was especially noticeable  during this visit, since I was experiencing a flareup with knee pain.  I grunted and limped, determined that pain was not going to stop me from spending quality time with The Daughters.    Despite my reassurances that the knee pain would taper off, The Daughters talked about a range of corrective measures including a cane, walker, brace or visit to an orthopaedic surgeon for a knee replacement.   I vetoed every suggestion.   But, realistically  if the pain is not resolved, I may have to look at suitable options.

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